I always put a lot of my time in myself in my life

So much that makes me care to much about me

Makes me feel jelous of my own ass sometimes

I'm swimming now

I'm finally letting myself get lost

I don't want to find me aymore

It's funny because now I think I'm gonna meet me somewhere

I don't know how many boats I was already in

Some big lusty ones

Some other - most of the time - full of holes, gave me a lot to do

I worked out, got stronger(?), I don't know

I only know that I decided to jump from the last one and it wasn't that bad

It just came to me that I want to swimm now

It's dark and cold and the waters kind of - seem crazy, I know - mad

The chances of dying are bigger than any other chance I could have

And you ask if I'm happy

No. But I'm not sad. And I don't care

Actually I already left my happiness at the front door when I came in

As I said or maybe didn't, I don't want to carry anything that is not me

Actually, if I find it apropriate, I'm gonna float

I can already feel again the most remote feeling I've ever had about the color blue

And red. The wires, pipes... Maybe the feeling I earlier chose to codify

It's cool. I like it.